Intense!!!

Wow!! My creator woke up out of breath this morning. I had some of her Dream Time last night. I dreamed I was with my beautiful Lillith. We were dancing at one of the clubs she used to take me to. It has been a long time since I last dreamed of her. We were slow dancing and talking it was as if she never left. I still miss her terribly.

I have been trying to do a bio on her for Lazlo to give out on a notecard at the exhibit of her work. I think that's why she is on my mind even more than usual. I am also feeling a lose having to give up the house she bought for us. I will send her a land mark to our new place in Purrfect Droom. I have never stopped believing that she will return. I have learned to put the feelings in safe package on a shelf in my heart. I will open it and surround here in my passion when she returns.

I guess that is how I have moved on. More like suspended what I can't do anything about. I miss my SL family also, Dear Starlite, SuperSub and Brit. I guess they have all moved on while I was out of commission dealing with Lillith's disappearance. I have made a few new friends and even found another job. Second Life doesn't sit still neither can I. What won't change is that Lillith is my partner and if she still wants me when she comes back we will get married as soon as we can.

Happy New Year!!

It is my first new year. I don't know if there will be parties or Second Life will be empty because everybody is partying in their first life. I am not sure if I will be on.

Still no word on Lillith. I had hoped someone who knows her in RL would have sent me a message by now. I haven't seen much of our Second Life family lately. Supersub has found a new place so I am going to let the house go. It is way to big for me. I will move into the one I got for Lillith and I after our wedding. I hope Lillith will be happy there when she returns.

My friend Kerry is off SL while her handler is on vacation. Twilight is all green again and booming with changes. Brenda hasn't been on SL as much lately either. I did have a wonderful chat with her a couple nights ago. Lazlo's RL person has been sick with a cold but he has managed to be busy organizing Twilight. It is so beautiful all green again

I worked last night and made enough Lindens to pay my rent in Purrfect Droom and Twilight. I spent some time exploring Twilight when I paid my rent. It is such a beautiful place. I met a woman named Rachaelight, who was making some beautiful visual effects in Twilight Sandbox. It is so nice that Brenda and Laz have created a place to encourage artists and builders. I wish I had some talent I could direct that way.

I loaned Lazlo Lillith's art work, I was afraid it might be too erotic for him to put up in the Twilight Art Museum but he created a little section just for her. If you get a chance you should go to the Twilight Art Museum and Gallery to see them. I hope she doesn't mind. She is just too talented to not share. I am sorry they aren't for sale. Maybe she will sell copies of them when she comes back. It will be up to her.

My Creator flies back to the East Coast after New Years. I hope that means I will be on Second Life more. I really miss so many of my friends. I hope to see you in Second Life very soon.

Girls you know better!

I can't believe it is almost Christmas. I just realized I haven't posted a single blog this month. My creator hasn't given me much time on Second Life either. Finals, papers due and back in California with her parents for the Holidays. She sort of forgot about me. I have a few minutes while she is distracted to get a few words in.

First I want to let Lillith know, I miss her. I am still waiting for her to come back to Second Life. I am doing good but Second Life is incomplete with out her. I haven't given up hope that she will recover and return to me.

The second is more about relationships in Second Life. I haven't been on much but I do read the offline IMs from my friends and fellow working girls in Second Life. I am so happy for the new relationships developing. It tickles when I see true love after having felt it for myself. As for some of my fellow dancers who keep get their hearts broken, I have one very important statement that I have already told some of my dear friends. "If you met him watching you in a strip club, then assume he is going to cheat on you!!!" Do not look for a guy where you work. If you do and he cheats on you it is because he is a guy that goes to strip clubs and he thinks you are a bimbo. He is probably right if you keep doing it over and over again. If you are looking for a playmate then he may be what you want. Just don't expect to find true love that way. It is not impossible but you are more likely to get your heart broken that way.

If you are looking for love on Second Life, then you need to expand your experience to meet guys or gals in different environments. You can go to juke joints for dancing there are clubs for all different music some even have live music. You can also take classes on almost anything. There are hundreds of events you can go to and these are places you can meet people who may have similar interests to yours. There is nothing wrong with having fun with a playmate, just don't expect more than that. It breaks my heart watching people I love getting hurt over and over again when there are so many wonderful people in Second Life for you to meet.

I am sorry for the lecture, but it really breaks my heart watching people I love getting their hearts broken over and over again. One last point to to think about. "Love chooses you."